Saturday, June 19, 2010

Lonely in SLC

Well. I'm in Salt Lake City now. As the newness of the place and the excitement wears off, I wonder what the heck I have done. Now don't get me wrong, I do like it here in many ways, but I'm so confused and worried about the future and about.... everything.

My initial plans and reasons for wanting to move, etc were based upon a promise from a boss, who ended up quitting two weeks after I re-joined the company... so immediately I lost my plan and immediate dream. That must be for some divine reason, because that just stinks. Seriously. So now I've jumped around from store to store, and here I am in SLC, lonely, in limbo, and scared. Scared isn't a word I use readily, it's not something I feel often... but who wouldn't be when I have no idea what I am doing necessarily? I want a masters in business and that's all I know. Now how to get there... and once there, then what do I exactly want to be? A District Manager in Retail? A more corporate type of avenue? I'm not sure. It's all so "scary." (I just hate that word).

My one and only request of life right now, is to give me some people to fill my life with. People who are uplifting, positive, hardworking, kind, and spiritual. You would think, me still being in Utah, that I would find others with my beliefs to be around and hang out with... but I'm having a hard time finding that. I must be looking in the wrong places. I pray that I will find where to look, because my life her is quickly becoming depressing. I'm really ready for that not to be the case.

Here's to hoping that I will find uplifting friends to keep on a good path, or, here's hoping... to an even better one!


  1. Tanya,

    I just want you to know that I am thinking of you. I am excited about your new adventures you are going to have in SLC. I think you are amazing and I am grateful to know you. Let's find a time when we can meet somewhere and catch up. I hope you have a great weekend!!!


  2. I've been out of the loop...I thought you were doing a teaching internship? Did you finish/graduate?