Monday, November 30, 2009

BUCKETLIST for before I'm 30 and HOW? 'Cause I'm SINGLE!

Well, here's the deal - most of my closest friends are dating or are married. I however am not. This is it - I'm not a female that is going to sit around bemoaning my fate, wondering what is wrong with me. The thing is... NOTHING is wrong. Everything is great and honestly, I think I'm finally finding out what life is all about.

So as my friends post picture after picture of their babies and husbands, blogs about families and anniversaries, engagements, etc etc... I figured HEY being single is awesome too! I'm honestly kinda sick of LDS society focusing on how people who are married are happy and awesome - and many people act like those are single are "oh those POOR, sad, lonely single people." UH - NO. I say to all you single women out there - there is life to be had other than sitting at home wondering what to do because we're not married! LET'S GO. We have the ability to GO and do ANYthing and BE ANYTHING, why in the world do we care if we're still single?? HELLO, I'm 28 - not 70 or something, I have a life. lol.

Here's the crux of my blog. I am now going to SHOUT as to why single life is so freakin' awesome and am going to change this viewpoint of the "Sad, lonely, single" female. Being married and having babies is not the only thing that is awesome in life. I am going to figure out things to do with my fabulous single self. So... without further ado - here is my bucket list for before I'm 30! Things I can do (anytime I want) because I am SINGLE, free, happy, young, and have the rest of my life to get married! :):):)

Before I'm 30 I will/my Bucketlist:

* Graduate from college in Music Education having: Been Drum Major of the Band for 4 years, conducted and directed a BYU basketball band, been in 3 Relief Society Presidencies, been the President of my Living hall, manager for two different retailers, lost 65 pounds, became a runner, etc etc.

* Sky Dive
* Become Scuba Certified
* Learn how to play Guitar and Piano
* Run at least a half-marathon
* Reach my goal weight
* Learn how to snow board
* Become a boxer
* Visit all of the temples in Utah
* Peruse at least 10 museums that I have never been to
* Hike to the top of 5 new mountains (not ones that I have already done)
* Go to Disneyland (Since I've only been to Disney WORLD a billion times)
* Ride the largest rollercoaster in the United States
*Become a tri-athlete

And all this before I'm 30! And I can... why? Because I'M SINGLE! BOO-YAH! ;)

I want to add to this list as well. So if any of you (marrieds or non-marrieds ;)) have any suggestions of what I can add to this, then let me know!

I'm excited for the life that I can live in anyway that I would like, being grateful to this beautiful, free country in which we live!

"You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights."
-Dr. Seuss

Thursday, May 28, 2009

The beginning

I have been begged, told, and pleaded to by many of my Elders to keep a remembrance of my life. I have been told by countless family members, friends, and associates to write down what I feel, have learned, or continue to think about. For their sake, the sake of my posterity, or maybe just to be plain selfish (to remember and reflect my own findings), I have decided to write this blog.

I tried to think of a lot of different names to identify with. Many of them were thoughts of titling this blog after the hardships of my life and the saying that has constistently gotten me through it, "blue skies," with the meaning coming from one of my favorite jazz charts. The basic understanding is that blue skies are shining at me... no matter what I'm going through, there's a blue sky after the storm.

Even though that would definitely be a great idea for my blog, I felt that that might be a little too much of my old life. My old life was one filled with self pity, sadness, depression, and fear. That ended for me just under a week ago. I have always been an analytical, deep, and internal thinker, and all of my thoughts and impressions came to what I call my aHA! moments, or moments of clarity. By biggest moment of clarity was just this past Friday. It came at the perfect time, a time when I needed the most support. I realized after this personal aHA! moment who I was, how I should think, and most importantly came to understand that I was a daughter of a Heavenly Father who most definitely knew and loved me. It's a long story as to why I was doubting that, or what has happened to me over the past 27 years. A part of that past might come up, but I'm more intersested in the now and in the future. I'm interested in how I act based upon the knowledge I have gained and the person that I have become.

And so, here we are. My newest idea and most interesting one to date is labeling this blog "The many Adventures of Tan-Tan." Even knowing that I am stealing the title from Winnie the Pooh, of all things, I still find it to be a perfect title. I'm interested in the adventure I will now make of my life. I'm interested in the fact that I'm going to take each day as a new opportunity to start LIVING and to DO something. I'm interested in taking what I can from the learning of the past and then letting it go. I'm interested in finding my place in this world and in doing good for all mankind. I'm interested in living each day in such a way that I can go to bed and know that I've done all that I could. I want to wake each day to have the creators of evil scared and upset that I am awake again. I want to be healthy, strong, happy, reliable, and stable. I want to be a better daughter, friend, associate, teacher, and mentor.

In short, I want to live up to my potential. Which means that with each day I need to push myself more and more, because as Lance Armstrong says, "We are much better than we know...we have unrealized capaticities." I know this to be true and I welcome anything that helps me to realize the unrealized.